Nowadays there’s only “friends” to have fun, party or just kick it with. There’s barely anybody who would actually be there for me through hard times.

I’m stuck in-between problems, people or things. So much to deal with. I cant seem to think right or straight anymore. I’ve been strong before without even knowing it, but now things are just tumbling down on me making me feel weak. Nothing to look forward to. I wish I have someone to really guide me, or actually hear me out, or be there for me. I’ve been crying most nights, what a way to start a new year. I’ve got so much to offer to make things better, but I can’t seem to do anything about it. I just wish that things get better. I hope I can surpass all this. It sucks that I cant run to the place I used to go for my getaway from all my problems. I miss my 1st and true home, the one that got taken away from my family. I cant bear with this pain anymore.